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This is so interesting to think about, and I'm considering how it does and doesn't match with my personal experience.

In school and university, I was often the only female in physics or computer science classes (maths classes were less skewed), and I don't recall being particularly fazed by it: I was pretty good at these things, at those levels, without too much effort, so my underlying belief that I had to be perfect to be adequate wasn't challenged.

It was in graduate school, where there were actually more women around, that I started finding the work actually quite difficult and other people were actually better prepared than I was, where imposter feelings started to hit me hard. (No matter how often I heard from my peers that they had those very same feelings. You still think, yeah, but it's TRUE about me.) So I don't think those issues were straightforwardly gender-related for me.

On the other hand, I have a vivid memory of attending a field-related meeting where I was the only woman, and also senior to most people there, and feeling like everyone knew so much more than I did. Only later did I notice that many of the men would simply say whatever they knew, as long as it was even partially related to the topic at hand, whereas I tended to stay silent unless I was absolutely sure that what I wanted to say was 100% accurate and pertinent.

Thanks for another thought-provoking and humane article!

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